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As a TCK don’t you feel like you are always struggling or striving for something? Sometimes you feel like you need to get somewhere so that someday someone will understand…and then that day did come…now what?

Before fall of 2006 I was pretty much a “struggler” I guess I can call myself that LOL I realized later that the fact that I had to struggle to become someone, to be understood has eventually become a part of me – that it seems to be I will always be searching for that “identity” for the rest of my life.

And then I discovered “Third Culture Kid”…then it all made sense. Then I spent the next couple of years coming in to terms with myself, discovering who I am, exploring my own thoughts and for the first time be very very comfortable with myself. And then I had my closure.

And then one day I sat there and thought…I don’t need to struggle any more? I can just be who I am? Oh what fun is that?

When you get so used to something, even though it was painful, you seem to want to hold on to it. Ironically TCK don’t really hold on to something do they? Or is it the getting-used-to things that will always be a part of us (i.e. adaptability)?

I guess I can say right now I am pretty happy with myself. I have finally discovered who I am and now I can do whatever I want…and yet I feel like there is a void. It may sound odd but I kind of miss those days where I couldn’t figure myself out but then again I do not wish to return to those days.

Now, I have just recently discovered that my newly obtained independence hasopened up a lot of things for me. I am actually thinking of taking photography seriously. I realized that that has been my favorite form of expression and didn’t know it until now. I do not know where I am going from here but then again as a TCK things change everyday.